Really it's raining

march 18th. View from my bedroom window

Yes those are rain drops blurred on the glass. I thought maybe I'd keep track of how many rainy days compared to sunny days there are this spring. I know it's not technically spring yet but it's only 2 days away. And I think that I have only seen the sun briefly, twice in the last week.
This is not meant to depress, just gives me something to do. Oh yeah, I have lots to do, like get my business plan finished. I'll go work on that right now.........

Part of my brilliant idea.

Check out my new blog.

http://girlmovestopdx.blogspot.com/

it's exciting turning point in my life.

Pop up shop

Wow so things are crazy with the holidays and the pop up shop. I can't wait for JAnuary.

Meet your Maker

It's that time again. come join me and a bounch of other talented people Dec 5th.

From my rambling mind

my mental state has been in a bit of a blunder these past few months, well really it's been years. I have been looking for that right career, place to dwell, person to be with. You know that exact perfect fit that will make everything seems Rosy and right in the world.

But I have not found these things. I did find a someone to be with and although I love him dearly, sometimes it's really hard. I know that I'm no picnic either.

so I have been working dead end jobs that are unfulfilling, moving from place to place once I get bored with them, because what's keeping me there in the first place......? nothing.

I've now come to another cross roads. I have finally figured out what it is that I want to do with my life, what I think will make me truly happy and fulfilled. the problem is that although I have been working very hard at it for about a year now I still can't seem to get it off the ground and running. do I deliberately sabotage things???

Made indie craft boutique is definitely where my heart is. I love the handmade movement and the people involved in it. Some would say that they are "Hippsters" and not in a nice way. But I myself am a bit of a "Hippster". I am also a bit of a "Hippie" but I've learned after moving to Eugene OR that I am not the hippie I thought I was nor do I want to be. The "Hippies" or should I say the "Hippie" mindset in this town is so liberal that it makes me feel like Sarah Palin. The reason I bring all this up, is that I don't think this is the town I am supposed to build my life in, my business in.

I know what you are all thinking......... Wow, this is a lot. we want fun and light. The problem is that I don't feel fun and light. I feel like my life is in shambles. I'm 36(in Jan) and have no children(which I want) and no career, living pay check to pay check with my husband in a town we has serious issues with.

Yesterday this was all laying heavily on me and J asked me " are you writing any of this down?" and I answered "no, I haven't done that in years". so I'm going to make that part of my goal to work things out in my head to start writing all of this down. and I'll share it with all of you.

It's time to start living my authentic self, as Oprah would say. But really I just want to stop doubting and being miserable and start living the life that I picture in my head.

Thanks for listening (reading)

Summer Knitting

Here is one of 4 consigment pieces that i have finished this summer.

Wow i can wait for the summer to be over so I can start working on my own projects. i think I have about 5 lined up in my Queue.

I'm knitting a brides maid sweater for my friend Lynn. she's getting married 10-10-10.

this was my progress over a 5 day vacay to Wyoming.

Julie's bridesmaide shawl

THere are a ton of weddings this year as well as a ton of babies being born. so along with my normal knitting load I've had extra to do.

This shawl is for my good high school frind Julie, she is getting married in Zurich at the end of july.